Let me pour my wisdom on you.

I can no longer apreciate the smaller things.

I can no longer create just to create.

Beauty did not follow me, i looked for it.

And now i look at nothing.

Hmm...

my way of saying a lot about how uninspiring things are.

I look at my portfolio and i cannot for the life of me figure out how i

discovered what i did.

It seems now that my memory spans only about a week.

Or perhaps i give up trying to remember after then...

I'm not sure. Then again i wasn't sure to begin with.

Damn.


Well a lot of broken things and a lot of nostalgic epiphonies fill the

void between yesterday and tomorrow. I found a box full of memories. It

seems i have been discovering nothing everyday since a beginning i

didn't know started. Repeat repeat.

At least when i created, it was something new. New inspiration, new

canvasas. A universe of possibilities swathed in color.


And it starts with a line. An invisible, sometimes nonexistent line.

Like starting points for new chapters. Where the next one goes... well

i think we all know.


Create just to create.

I think we all contemplate purposes every now and then.

The world will continue happily.




~Brian

(excerpt from the nonsensical, possibly cynical lobes)


UPDATE: I was involved in a bad accident a week ago. My car is totalled.
I continue to work at a dead-end job making angry people happy, while slowly disappearing from the radar of significance in the long run. The future is uncertain for me and my friends, and the world is such a cruel cruel place. I keep wishing for total system collapse. Perhaps a zombie appocalypse. New is old and old is new. Why do i keep smiling? Endless lines... endless times. I cannot be jealous anymore. The internet is so fickle and boring. The people on it flow forth with endless wit (aka stupidity, mainly found on the Y-chromosome). Winter is Summer is Fall is Spring in California. The valleys are still smoggy, i still wake up to earthquakes. I always skip breakfast and i can't bear to read tabloids. I think i wonder, but i don't, i mean at least i think so. What exactly am i supposed to be looking for?


Hand me a fucking map. I totally forgot that there's an ocean..